She was younger than me.
And man, She's had some rain in Her life.
Her body is failing.
Her soul was tortured.
And She wasn't there for either one.
i had to sit back and say, "vee, you've been Blessed."
i walked outside in the Rain tonight.
it was by choice.
it was cold, dark, the trees above me, and the cold drops falling randomly over me
and everything else.
i thought of the Ancestors and felt just a small part of what They felt.
and even thought of a Homeless Man I'd seen not long ago.
just a tiny, very tiny glimpse into just a regular old day for Them.
and i had to sit back and say, "vee, you've been Blessed."
i feel so small. the things i thought i wanted in life seem so trivial right now.
and remember to feel the good that is in my life right now; today.
i could be anybody else, any one of the people who has had it harder than me.
and i'm Thankful for my Regular Old Days.
then i said goodnight to my Son.
we had a real good day today.
we did a little dreaming. and a little talking.
He's going to have surgery in the morning.
And all I can say is, "Lord please bless