...So Speak it With Rhythm;-)
Girl,
Why you always acting like you just gotta have a man?!!!
What is it about you that says alone you can't stand?
I mean,
don't get me wrong...
Right now I'm single too and sometimes I feel a little lonely,
But I know I loooove me some me.
And when I find that special one,
I'll make him my one and only.
But until then,
I refuse to run behind,
someone not even worth my time,
tryin' to use me or take what's mine,
and think it's his God-given right
...just cause God made him fine.
Believe me, what I have is awesome,
and definitely worth preserving.
Not to be given away so easily
to someone so undeserving.
So whatcha think 'bout what you got?
Is it worth a dozen roses, or a single forget-me-not?
And tell me, what values are you really teaching your daughter?
You're not taking care of yourself and your house ain't in order.
She's learning from you
and at the same time raising herself
And you want to know what HER problem is?
H#!!
Ok, so why is it okay
that he hit you last night?
Eye still black. Lip "swole" up!
But I guess that's just alright,
huh?
Why is it okay
that you're alone this holiday,
while your man is having the time of his life
celebrating at home with his kids and...his wife?
Why is it okay
for him to hurt your kids and treat them bad?
And you wondering why they're making bad grades in school
and always looking sad.
whew!
And last, but not least...
Why is it okay
for him to talk to you like a child?
For him to belittle you and call you names
and wonder why you don't smile.
humh!
But you should be smiling
and you could be smiling!
Drop that &^(%##!!,
pick up the phone and start dialing...
Your loved ones, your friends,
the ones you trust to be there thru thick & thin.
You want a new life?
You want to be happy?
Then this is where you must begin.
Think support system, think sympathetic ears.
Who will listen and won't laugh at my tears?
Who will allow me to speak it out loud and release my fears?
And please take some time between this one and the next.
Every guy I hear you mention, you're calling him your ex.
Spend some time with you just getting to know yourself.
You've got to be confident and comfortable in your own shell.
Find a hobby.
Do you even know what it is you like to do?
Oh, I get it.
It's been so long that you've forgotten what pleases you.
Ok, so join a book club.
Take down a book from the ole dusty shelf.
Get back to loving your kids,
and honey get back to loving yourself!
Occupy your mind.
Fill your thoughts with sunshine.
Invite your kids to share with you their hopes and dreams,
and how they spend their time.
Plant a flower garden.
Dig in the soil and the dirt.
You know there are many hidden treasures
here on God's green earth.
Find someone or something else to give life and light to
besides that guy who so "thoughtfully" hurt you.
Drop them bags like Erykah told you to.
Be true to yourself and simply do you.
But forgive him
and all his deeds just the same,
So you can take back your power and
reclaim your true name.
QUEEN!
Stop being his victim of shame.
And don't forget, exercise is always good,
especially if you'd like to shed a few pounds.
Try Yoga classes to relieve the stress.
You'll start to have more ups than downs.
Now,
You've worked on your mental
and you've worked on your physical,
so complete your circle, sis,
and work on your spiritual.
Before you know it,
you'll feel like a different person.
Oh, you'll still be you,
but just a better version.
Then...
You'll be ready for a partner.
Not just a man or any man,
but someone you can actually start to:
Share your dreams with,
watch TV and laugh with,
comfort and make love to,
or simply relax and chill with.
Let down your guard and cry on,
someone you can depend on,
to see you through the tough times
or guide you through a storm.
And sweetie,
the men you will then attract
will make them sorry Kats look so slack.
Cause they will be kind, and gentle, and sweet.
And you won't have to ask them to watch your back.
So what about me?
I know so much, where's my guy?
Well I'm truly not a hypocrite,
so I will not lie.
Right now I'm still working on me.
Trying to be the best me I can be.
Not yet done with my metamorphosis,
But he should be along shortly is my guess;-)
So again I ask you...
Girl,
Why you always acting like you just gotta have a man?
What is it about yourself that you just can't stand?
I mean,
don't get me wrong...
Right now I'm single and sometimes feel a a wee bit lonely,
But I know I looooove me some Vee.
And when I find that special one,
I'll make him my one and only.
How's that for some Jowaje Philosophy?
Peace,
love,
Light,
& Self Respect My Beautiful Sisters,
Vee
posted by Vee Jefferson @ Monday, June 23, 2008
The Afro!
To me
The Afro signifies power and strength.
With just a hint of militancy, it whispers to those who are listening, "I am free! And I am free to be me."
It's naturally regal edginess personifies the struggle of a people to first understand, then overcome and overstand.
But not only to overstand what's right in front of us and what should be apparent, but also the lessons of the ancestors...
the lessons of the past.
To overstand the oppression and the fight.
To overstand the self-doubt and self-hatred that has been buried deep within our subconscious minds.
To move ahead to self-acceptance and appreciation, and to self-love.
To me,
The Afro represents determination, perseverance, and the ability
To rise again and remember who we are,
and what we are.
To me,
The Afro is symbolic of a people digging up their rightful crowns and
hanging them where they belong.
Need I explain that one?
No, because I'm sure you know.
On some level, you already know.
So this week, I'm wearing a big Afro wig.
And even though I'm loving my short naps,
and absolutely was delighted with my bald head,
and will probably do the big chop once more before I let it grow much longer...
I look forward to the day when my Afro is as big and woolly as it is in my pictures.
The day when I
can pick up My crown
and wear It with honor, humility and grace.
February is Black History month, but I say let's celebrate it all year long!
Vee
(btw, this was challenge 6 in the Miss Nappturality Contest. I won this one;-)
Originally written by Vee Jefferson on Saturday, February 09, 2008, for the Miss Nappturality Contest.
I Need This Day
I'm not answering the phone today.
I will not answer the door.
I need this day to myself.
So tomorrow I can soar.
I want to reminisce on 2007.
Sort through the lessons and file them on the shelf.
I want to meditate and recreate.
I want to reconnect with my inner-self .
I need healing energy for the coming new year,
to energize and renew my body, my mind, and my spirit.
No one else's woe can help me today,
Cause when I hear, I have to live it.
And I don't mind, not usually.
Hey, you got a problem, you can use me.
But not today, cause today's my day.
My baby's upstairs,
Zion and Sampson are around,
And my Mighty Master's beside me.
He needs this time alone with me
to work on me and mine.I am a recluse for just this day,
But tomorrow I will shine.
And once I'm
brightly shining,
I'll have so many rays to share.
So please, let me be for just...this...day,
and tomorrow I'll be there.
Peace, Love, & Light,
Vee
brightly shining,
I'll have so many rays to share.
So please, let me be for just...this...day,
and tomorrow I'll be there.
Peace, Love, & Light,
Vee
-original poem written by Vee May 3, 2003
-edited today!
-current mood - Reflective
-edited today!
-current mood - Reflective
-listening to:
India Arie's Private Party..!........
Couldn't Sleep...
... written on 10/02/02 @ 0625
As I lay my head sideways upon his chest,
nestled safely in the warmth and strength of his bosom,
salty tears snake across my face
-slithering, burning, searing my sensitive flesh.
I sob, I dab, I wipe.
My finger, the pillow case, the sheets.
But my muffled sniffling is in vain!
I don't want him to know I'm crying.
Oh but he does know.
He sees the dark cloud encircling me even in this darkness.
He senses my sorrow in the air.
He saw me pray.
He feels it in the nonrhythmic rhythm of my breathing
-and the uncontrolled twitching of my body.
Thought I was being quiet,
yet he hears me even in this silence.
He holds me, caresses me.
Not exactly sure what to do,
but instinctively does what I need him to.
He holds me, squeezes me, caresses me
'til my breathing once again matches his.
Never once uttering a word.
Never once searching for the tears,
he gave me peace, reassurance, and serenity.
He gave me him.
He gave me love!
Job well done,
he rolls over but continues to give reassuring pats.
He lays his leg next to mine, touching
'til he slumbers off to sleep.
I need to write this down!
If I get up will I wake him?
I'm thinking about you Momma,
remembering this night three years ago.
Remembering my thoughts, my feelings, your words, your face, your eyes.
Watching you.
So strong.
Praying for you to softly slumber off to sleep,but secretly wishing you could stay with me.
Momma I love you,
but maybe now I can fall asleep too.
posted by Vee Jefferson @ Sunday, October 07, 2007
A Day in My Life
Thursday, September 06, 2007
Spoken Word Piece by VeeI love him
I love him
I love him all the time,
but I like him when he's...
...asleep!
He's beautiful
He's beautiful
He's oh so beautiful to me all the time,
but he's absolutely gorgeous when he's...
...asleep!
yeah, I'm talking bout my baby,
my baby boy,
my little prince,
my inspiration,
my muse,
and the biggest pain in the a$$ I've ever seen in my life!
He's the smartest, sweetest, wittiest, funniest little dude I've ever met.
Got reasoning and deduction skills a lot of grown folks don't even possess.
And did I mention he's the biggest pain in the a$$ I've ever seen in my life?
I do believe it is my privilege to say what I want to say about him,
as long as I do what I'm supposed to do for him. To love, to nourish, and to nurture him.
You see, I love him more than words can explain.
I live for him, and I'd die for him.
I'd punch a monster in his eye for him.
I mean, he's my baby!
my heart,
my amazing and splendid gift from God.
And oh yeah, in case I didn't mention, the biggest pain in the a$$ I've ever seen in my life?
You see, only a person who really loves someone can get away with saying something as crude as this and still have people understand how big the love is.
But make no mistake about it.
I'm the only one who can say it.
"See, I's the one that birthed that baby!"
I was the one who was up all night,
sleep deprived, crazy, and looking a fright.
I was the one there with the runny noses,
the scrapes and bruises, the fevers,
the painful tooth buds,
and the nurses with the needles.
H#!!, I breast fed him so long he was walking 'round talkin' bout,
"I want some momma nuke!"
couldn't say momma milk in the beginning,
so momma nuke just kinda stuck.
See, during the hours while he's awake,
I'm constantly talking and explaining,
correcting and persuading,
pleading and begging,
bargaining and threatening.
yelling and fussing,
spanking and sometimes even cussing...
...then embarrassed when I take him to his doctor's appointment,
we're sitting out in the lobby, he picks up a half dragon,
half donkey character from the movie Shrek
and says, "What the h#!! is this?!"
Uhh, my bad!
And no, I didn't spank him for that.
I quickly, but politely answered him, "That's a dronkey baby,"
so as to not give him the chance to ask that question again.
But on a more positive note,
I'm also singing and dancing
playing and laughing
story-telling and teaching
imagining and make-believing,
ABCing and 123ing,
I'm telling you, it can be quite overwhelming.
But when he slows down long enough to fall asleep,
and I can really see this little person whom I've co-created,
...actually see the work I've done,
I can see his beauty,
I can see his blessings,
I can see his purity and innocence,
And I can see his love, all magnified to the brillionth, billionth power.
And I think about all the sh*! we've been through on just that day alone.
Nothing seems as big or as bad as it did earlier.
I find my patience gets a little longer everyday.
I find that I'm not as quickly irritated as I was the day before.
And most importantly, I find myself realizing that I'm getting a little better at this motherhood thing every day that Jordan schools me.
And I look at him,
mouth slightly ajar,
light snore echoing in the background.
I see his chest rise and fall in perfect synchronicity.
I look at his belly button in awe of how it all began.
I marvel at this picture of pure perfection.
I see all that beauty and I realize...
Yeah, I love him all the time,
and like him when he's asleep,
but what I really and truly adore most is the moment he first opens his eyes in the morning.
And I say,
Thank you!
Thank you!
Thank you for my baby!
But ooooh sh*!,
here we go again!
--Vee Jefferson
posted by Vee Jefferson @ Thursday, September 06, 2007
Friends
can't turn a seasonal friend into a forever friend.
can't turn a forever friend into a seasonal friend.
whether it's a season...or the whole life long,
won't know the difference until you realize that the season has come and gone.
some blessings take a life time to earn.
some lessons take only a season to learn.
so I welcome each into my life.
and if the season does change, I stop for a minute and cry if I must cry;
all the while, remembering it was knowledge and wisdom that I yearned.
and while my world continues to turn
I'm going to be my best me,
while discovering and becoming who it is I'm supposed to be
I couldn't stand 24 hours of daylight?
I definitely couldn't stand 24 hours of night?
but they each have their purpose,
offering growth and understanding.
working together to make sure everything's balanced just right.
If only I could send the overstanding I have now to me back then.
I would stop and tell my two best friends
who have remained true through thick and thin
how happy I was that we were making this life long mend
cause our forevers were starting then,
And a little birdie told me it would never end.
Gail and Coretta, I Love You guys!
Labels: poetry
posted by Vee Jefferson @ Sunday, May 20, 2007
Definitely a piece of art that can stand alone.
I started to post it simply for you to use your imagination and come up with your own story, or poem, or
epiphany! But then it wouldn't fit into a blog, now would it?
Eerily romantic, and hauntingly captivating, I call this piece The Tree of Life with roots and hidden fruit. Wonder what the artist calls it.
It is so...so...
thought provoking.
Emotion evoking.
It's vintage with a hint of new age.
The sky is the limit,
the whole world their stage.
A soft kiss
A warm, but strong embrace
Bodies - still, silent movie
No name, no face.
It's no one
It's everyone
It's love and life
and Divine union
Barbaric, yet gentle
Naked, but unobtrusive
The secrets to life
So simple it's Elusive
With time, will the colors eventually turn green and blue, with hues of orange, brown?
Will there be water and stars and leaves to blow in the wind and fall down?
Will there one day be birds singing and animals playing and running around?
Or will the picture always be sepia-toned with the same message playing out loud
...feel me, see me.
What do you think of when you look at me?
It's vintage with a hint of new age.
The sky is the limit,
the whole world their stage.
Barren surroundings,
yet the tree brings forth life.
But where did he come from?
From the earth or from the sky?
Did he drop down from their loins
and travel through the root cave to the light.
Or did he simply fall from a branch,
you know the one with hidden fruit and remains out of sight?
Sensual and mysterious,
It makes me curious...
Will the babe grow up,
wrap his arms about his parents making the tree ever so much stronger?
Or will he simply crawl away, find a mate,
and plant his roots even longer?
It's vintage with a hint of new age.
The sky is the limit,
the whole world their stage.
Dark and ambiguous,
It makes me curious...
How tall are the branches?
How far do they extend?
How deep are the roots?
Freeze frame deception
-so what did the artist intend?
It's sexual and erotic,
enchanting and exotic.
Profound, and yes to some profane.
But what anyway is in a name?
As Shakespeare so eloquently put it,
titled by any name, it's still the same...
True Art!
posted by Vee Jefferson @ Wednesday, April 18, 2007
